So my days here at Mercy are coming to a close.....I can hardly believe it! I am just SO excited because I feel like such a different person-- I KNOW I'm a different person.
To think back to last year- I had to have a liquid diet for the first few weeks of my hospitalization because my stomach couldn't handle solid food. That was just last year! This week I had cheesecake on our outing, I tried REAL Dr. Pepper, and I had optional dessert. ( a pumpkin spice cookie). Holy crap! This is like a whole new world for me! And I'm not blowing up like a blimp (like the eating disorder would want me to think). I'm HAPPY!
I cannot wait to go home and live a normal life again. Going to school, working, spending time with family and friends. And God has put such big dreams in my heart that I plan to pursue. Coming to Mercy, I had no expectation for finding freedom or healing. After all, everything I had tried for the last few years was only temporary. So it is truly a MIRACLE that I am demolishing all the strongholds in my life. A miracle only God could orchestrate. Yes, I still have hard days. Yes, it's still a battle- but not every second of the day. I will have to stay vigilant, but I have confidence for the first time, that I can work it out. I am so excited and thankful for a second chance at life! I want nothing to do with my old behaviors. It's time to thrive!
Eph. 3:19 "May you experience the love of Christ, though it is SO GREAT you will never fully understand it. Then you will be filled with the fullness of life and power that comes from God."
Love, Sarah Michelle.
